Jan 15, 2012

ENOUGH - Part 2

What is it about me that is not enough for her?  I try to spend time with her, only asking that she gives me a chance.  She refuses, pushing me away.  We have had good times together before, good conversations, moments that felt so perfect.  Was this just my perception or did she feel it too?  How I have longed to be there for her - to hold and protect her, love her, cherish her.  She is so beautiful in my eyes - even with all of her weaknesses, imperfections, and insecurities.  If only she could see what I see in her - her great potential, worth, and talents.  If only she could feel a fraction of what I feel for her!  How can I pursue her with gentle love that she will understand and respond to?  I've tried... but failed.

Now, I can only wait patiently, hoping that one day she will give me a chance - a chance to share my love with her.  I will never attempt to force my love upon her!  For love is chosen.  I will always be here, always waiting and trusting that one day she will take my hand so we may walk through this world together.
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Have you ever loved someone only to be rejected?  Maybe that first High School crush who wouldn't even give your pimple covered face a second look?  Or maybe that relationship that turned out too-good-to-be-true dropping you from your cloud onto the hard earth below?  I know I have.  Love and rejection are strong emotions.  Being in love can turn us into soft, tissue-blowing, watery-eyed, rose picking, teddy bears.  Rejection can turn us into a resentful, red-faced, insecure, distant, hard and impenetrable wall.  

How often do we stop and think about where these emotions originate from and why they can be so powerful?  Maybe God created more than just the physical world.  Imagine God experiencing these same emotions, speaking these same words, with you as His subject.  Go back and re-read that account of heartbreak replacing "her" with "you".  It's powerful.  

Yet God has thousands of years of experience in dealing with His intense love for us and our rejection of Him. I myself, continually in word and deed have expressed that He simply is not enough.  However, our responses to His love do not change Him.   He will forever be that gentleman of a God waiting for us - His true love, to respond with trusting vulnerability.